Now What?

I kept hearing about 'Mid Life Crisis', and people made it out to be a demon. I heard it all and shrugged it saying "What the hell are these losers talking about?"

Cut to now, I think I'm going through a one myself, wondering about what I have done till now. Analyzing what I have learnt in these years, trying to decide what I would want to do in the coming few years, or for that matter in the coming years all together.

When I started my career, I had charted my career, where I wanted to be, what I wanted to do, how I wanted to go about it and all I did now was to work as a stepping stone to where I wanted to be, but now looking back, I am questioning; maybe it still is all right, but the tough task master I am, I want to question the progress I have made.

Could I have done better? Is this the best I can do? Is this all I can do?

All of the above questions sometimes pull me down, but quite often make me to strive harder. Not to prove to the world what I have done, but more to prove to myself that I can do better that what I have already done.

All of this is OK, what is the way forward? I think I want to continue striving to achieve the best, though still not crystal about my next steps, I still want to work towards the best possible solution. No one is going to tell me what is right, I will have to figure that myself.

My recommendation to anyone else who feels anything like the above, keep doing what you do best. If you feel you are not doing good enough, Great! Do better than now, keep challenging your own effort.

Jaane Tu... ya Jaane na

An amazing piece of fiction!

These are the kind of stories each one of us would love to be part of, with every boy wanting to be like Jay, and every girl Aditi, with friends like these, life in college must've definitely been beautiful.

Its an amazingingly sweet movie, with SO many beautiful moments where every girl in the audience is going "Awww! How cute!" or the entire hall is laughing away to glory. Abbas Tyrewala (Writer and Director) put this story as a life he always wanted to live when he was in college, and he sure has managed to bring the dreams of a majority of us alive.

You will get out of the movie hall thinking, "how cute was that, but does it really happen? and if it happens, why didn't it ever happen to me?" Take the feeling with a pinch of salt, exit, grab an ice cream with your sweetheart or fiends, and the feeling is easily forgettable.

Don't give this movie a miss, it's a movie you would always want to have watched.

Trying to Quit

I've been smoking for sometime now and there have been umpteen people around me who have asked me to quit, but it never happens. Everytime someone asked me to quit, and depending who was asking, I either tried to reduce the numbers or more often just smoke hiding from these people.
But there've been these few times when I have decided to quit and that's the only time I have lasted long enough to make a difference.
What I am trying to say is that, don't wait for people to ask to you to not smoke, just go ahead and decide for yourself. Now, you may be thinking "Has this guy ever had a single drag of smoke? Has he ever felt that urge that gets doused when you have that drag after you reach work, after a meal, while having a drink etc?" I really know what you are talking about and I agree that you will have to have a compelling reason to quit, so I'll try putting down a few things that can be useful.
First step is to convince yourself to quit...
Each one of us has something that is REALLY important in our life, so be it attracting the opposite sex, your family, the environment, your health, respect to elders etc etc, now in each of the case, you would realize, you will get the best results without that stick in your hand, think about each, and believe me, you will realize that its best that you quit. Now this takes sometime, just reading it here wont convince you, mull over it a bit, sleep over the idea and maybe you will see where I'm coming from.
Next step, which is after you have decided to quit, is to sustain...
If you search the net, you will find a zillion sites that will talk about how to stop smoking, what I will try and do is just let you know what worked for me.
After I decided to quit, the first thing I do is go tell the close friends around that I have quit, once U have done that, I'm fairly conscious because I don't want any of these guys to come and mock at me saying "I told you, you wont be able to do it" it fucking pisses me off, so I decide to show it to them all that I can do it. While this is my most hard working technique, the others are things like, I keep telling myself that I can do this, give myself a timeline that, I have stay quits atleast for 'x' months. All this put together pulls me off without any smokes for a few months.
I have done the above a few times and has always worked for me, while I know the best thing would be to quit for good, but if that's now happening, let me try to stay away for as much time as possible, I'm sure it does some good.
The reason for telling this all to you was because, starting today, I'm gonna be off smokes for sometime, and by telling you I have only increased the number of people who I will have to face if I give up.
Happy Not Smoking to you...